:'(

I thought it will be a nice day, but it is absolutely not. I've the worst feeling ever, tonight. I lose all the orientation, that I supposed to do. I was awaiting the approaching of that day, but now I wish it never come. It brings nightmare. Absolutely a huge nightmare. Don't give me such a spacious hope, I can't bear it. I'm tired. Tired for pretending like I'm so happy or it doesn't matter. Yet, it do a big matter. It's a tremendous sad case for me. And I really care for it. Will be nothing change after this articles. Nothing gonna change, except the increasing of my sadness. Whatever shit, nothing gonna change. Don't feel like to talk much, good night. xoxo.